Food Relationships and things I’ve noticed

This whole journey started because I wanted to not end up in the hospital or worse.

I think it was the best kick in the butt I’ve ever received! The benefits from food or avoidance of, have been eye opening for me so far.

Hardest part for me personally was giving up carbs, not sugars or sweet things, but yummy pasta, rice and startchy veggies! gimme them potatoes!!

I am hopeful that in the long run I will be able to enjoy them on special occasions if I chose. But having given them up, the benefits obtained so far outweigh any craving I may have felt at the beginning!

So a brief outline of what my current choice for eating is: Lots of fresh veggies colours everywhere!! but I avoid any grown underground at the moment ( starches) Fresh cuts of meat – Steaks, chicken, pork, fish , some other meats as long as the carb count is low. such as bacon or sausage, Low Carb / sugar dairy products, nuts and seeds. Plenty of choices, loads of meal options and other than keeping carbs low at 20g total per day, I don’t count anything.

I eat 2 meals a day, one at 11ish and the other at 4pm and I don’t snack at all. I’m never hungry during the ‘fasting’ hours as I eat enough during the 2 meals.

So now on to the best part!! the benefits!

  1. I am losing weight. (23 lbs so far this month)
  2. I wake up full of energy and find myself looking for an exercise to do to use some up!
  3. My mood swings and anxiety are at low to 0 now. I’m off my Paxil and my confidence is growing.
  4. My brown spots (liver spots as they’re sometimes called) have faded to almost unnoticeable.
  5. A few old scars have faded, especially the ones I had on my hands.
  6. My headaches are a thing of the past, even if I feel one coming, I put a small piece of pink salt under my tongue and that’s it.
  7. I feel positive about every day and look forward to trying new things and seeing new places.

I know things happen at different paces for different people and I am grateful that in the last month and a bit I have benefited so much.

Hope you are all enjoying life, or working on getting there!

Happily Happy with one less pill!

Earlier this year I was put on a ‘happy pill’ to help with my anxiety and depression. My situation of being isolated by helping out with my Mom ( Parkinson’s Disease) and my Dad and his memory issues and becoming panicked at the idea of being looked at or judged over my slowly expanding self.

Today when I saw my doctor, after 10 min of general catching up and reviewing my official 10 Kg (22 lbs probably 80 more to go) lost and my over all change in energy levels and confidence, she suggested that I could probably stop taking that little yellow pill.

I’m most hopeful that this will be a medication in my history now. I told her I would stop for 2 weeks and make notes on any changes. (not quite ready to give up the security blanket.)

Everyone is so different on their reactions with foods, everyone has their demons. I’m hopeful that my Diabetes Hellhound and my Cholesterol Daedra will be following the ‘happy little pill’ into my drug history too!

I am thankful at having the opportunity to change my life, grow into a new me and hopefully gain extra years in the journey too. The knowledge I was given to start and the path it’s taking me along have been just the push I needed .

So many things in life I dreamed of trying are starting to look like they might be reality, my bucket list is growing by the page lately! Old hobbies are on my radar again!

I hope you all are enjoying something in life, it makes all the other stuff so much more bareable.

Slow and Steady

They say slow and steady wins the race. Something I believe, but I need to work on my patience! I want it to be 3 months from now already so I can see how far I’ve gotten. So now I am working on teaching myself to appreciate where I am one day at a time.

Yesterday I was on a high, The scale had moved, I hit my first 20 lb loss!! clothes were fitting so much better and I felt terrific. I think I pushed it by including some berries in my meal plan along with a new pre-marinated chicken for my last meal of the day though. Today I’m puffy faced and I went back to bed at 6:00 am and slept another 3 hours. When I got up I felt sluggish and terrible. My blood sugars were 5.2. The thing is, I’m so much more in tune to what my body is saying that after a short rant, self hate session and a small slide into guilt, I bucked up and told myself to move on, it happened, learn from it!

Today I will clean eat, nothing outside of my main food choices and see how that feels tomorrow. My body is healing from decades of abuse, I need to help it.

I had a great NSV this morning after the whole woe is me thing, I fixed my slipper without having to sit! I just lifted my foot, didn’t fall over, fixed the heel and then as I put my foot back down realized how amazing that little thing felt!

Today I am going to try watch a few beginner yoga videos and give that a go. I know I need structure and routine so I’m hoping it will be something I can slot in to my day.

Hope Everyone out there is appreciating themselves and enjoying their day!

Struggle, Wrestle, Win that bout!

Hello Everyone out there!

My mind is on Motivation, Will-power and over all success today. Most people are not 100% able to follow new ‘diet’ changes, especially if it means cutting out foods you love, permanent or temporary, it’s hard to tell the cravings what to do sometimes!! Remember every step is one step further than you were before!

So I wanted to visit this topic for myself.

I love pizza, I also know I can’t just have 1 slice and be done. So I have locked that food into my “No can do” box. BUT I have a promise to myself that if I stick to my plan, achieve my goals, I will reward myself.

The more I delve into my health choices, the more I realize that as long as you retain what you know and live it, the more habit it becomes. So eating right, exercising and general taking care of my mind, body and spirit (soul) will be the norm.

I’ve started finding non-food rewards more pleasurable. I’d prefer a soak in the tub with a new scented bath bomb, over any candy. (Confession – I don’t really have a sweet tooth, so was a bit easier for me and I fit better in the tub now, so it’s definitely not just a reward, but an NSV too!)

The other thing I do is journal daily for Blood pressure, blood sugars, weight, foods eaten, times and exercise done. There are multiple reasons I do this, to keep myself in check, to be able to discover and identify any foods that don’t react well with my body, and also to track results. It’s very motivating to see a steady, even if slow, fall in weight, or blood sugars.

I don’t give the weight thing as much regard as I do measurements though. The changes in inches, sizes of clothes and overall feeling of being able to reach a little farther, or bend to pick something up with no effort, the NSVs (Non-Scale Victories) are way more motivating.

The other and last but not least muse I want to share today is that nothing is a failure or cheat. If you ‘fall off the wagon’ don’t look at it as failure, look at it as a lesson on what triggered the fall, and make plans on how to avoid that in the future. Life happens, you have to cope in a way that works for you, but maybe instead of eating the sugary stuff, comfort yourself with something a bit healthier.

Remember, starting over is easier mentally if you walk in with your mind set to knowing it’s done it before, it can do it again!

Take care of you. You should be your #1 fan and biggest supporter.

Revelations, Reality and the Stall

Hi everyone!

This week has been very much about healing, experimenting and learning. I’ve been focusing on listening to what my body tells me as I try adding new foods to my menu.

First I have to admit, I found a veggie I really don’t like. It wasn’t the taste, so much as the texture. The Eggplant! Maybe one day I’ll find a recipe that makes it palatable for me.

My weight hasn’t moved this week, but that’s to be expected, my body has a lot of healing to do and I’ve noticed NSVs that far outweigh (no pun intended!) any Scale drops. clothes fit a little loser, the horrible taste in my mouth is gone and my finger nails are growing in stronger now. There is also the skin miracles for me! my skin is smooth, clearer and old small scars and brown spots are fading. Also leg and arm muscles are starting to show through the fatty areas.

I’m exercising daily, first thing in the morning and all my pent up extra energy seems to benefit from that too.

THE BEST PART to me is the positivity I feel about things. I’m excited to go places and do things! My Bucket List of things the fat old lady me, plans on doing are all way more probable now. I’m not ashamed of who I am.

I have also done a reality check and will tone down my expectations on exercises. I want to learn Yoga next for stretching, flexibility and relaxation. I am researching rather than just seeing something and picking my ‘cool’ factor. That will all come later. For now I need to heal my mind and body and work my way into the HIIT and strenuous exercises.

I am also going into schooling this fall with an open mind. The way of life I have chosen feels right to me and so far has been very positive! Learning Natural Nutrition with ‘daily nutritional government standards’ might not fully support my choices, but it doesn’t mean it can’t be applied. I want to learn everything I can about nutrition for not just physical positives, but also for the mental health and well being. To heal, one must balance the mind, body and soul.

The end goal for me isn’t necessarily about weight, it’s about making friends with my body and feeling good about my life.

Butt Kicking received, earned and almost lasted until the very end!

The first exercise chosen to try to see if it would be a fit for me was last night… let me tell ya, I got my butt kicked and I loved every second of the intense HIIT , stretching, technique learning, partnering exercises and experience!

Kickboxing is fun, challenging and all the butt jokes are based on the fact that late last night and this morning, the only muscles really feeling it are my glutes!

To start off, the staff is super friendly and helpful. The place is clean and inviting, and the other tortured souls are friendly too. A definite family feel to the whole experience. This helped me to fight off my minor anxiety attack immediately!

The level of experience varied within the class, but the instructors were attentive and would show me modified versions when I wasn’t up to the full intensity of the class.

I left feeling 1000% proud of myself, even though a mere 4 minutes before the end I had to step out as I felt a little light headed. Out of shape me needs some serious exercising in between to get myself up to where I’ll really benefit from the classes, but I’m really looking forward to my next class!! I’ll be there with gloves on! ( mine were supplied as part of the class fee and are a pretty pink. )

If you’re thinking of trying this yourself, I would recommend this company and especially their Thornhill branch! I love Kickboxing https://www.facebook.com/ilovekickboxingthornhill/ .

But research locally for you and look for deals!

Feelings, Highs and Lows

I had an appointment with a really helpful Holistic Nutritionist today. I realized as I chatted about what I knew, how I was dealing with things and what I wanted help with, that I REALLY want to help other people feel better too!

She mentioned that the physical progression was great, and felt that I should share the other changes that have happened so far, that they might help other people feel less alone, maybe help them take the step to help themselves!

My list to date of changes when I started noting them was better than even I thought! somehow sharing my happiness over the little things made them make more sense and added more value.

  1. Energy level – mentally and physically. I just felt more inclined to tackle things like cleaning, or walking or shopping, nothing seemed overwhelming any more.
  2. My anxiety over public places and ‘people’ has all but gone. I really stepped out of my comfort zone today and went to that kickboxing class and loved every minute of it!! (more on that tomorrow)
  3. My constant mood swings, anger, short temper, sadness have not reared their ugly heads since cutting out sugar.
  4. Sleep!! I have fallen into a natural rhythm of sleeping at around 10 pm (tonight being an exception as I am still not quite down from my exercise high!!) and waking between 6 and 7. no alarms and no waking every 1/2 hour in a panic over some fear in my head over things I can’t control.
  5. Clarity, this is probably the most important one of all. Shortly after cutting out sugar and lowering carbs to under 20 gr a day ( all from veggies and some fruit) I found myself remembering things better, being able to understand things I read or was told without having to reread or replay or ask someone to repeat (granted my hearing has me ask for repeats, but not from lack of focus!) It was like a fog had lifted and everything was clearer and made sense again!

The one thing that has become super important to me is that I get that none of this is a competition, I’m not in a race. I’m making changes, listening to what my body tells me and adjusting along the way. I can listen to other’s NSVs and see their before and after pics and maybe pick up things to try in my own journey! That’s the key, you need to remember it’s your journey, not anyone else’s.

Tonight I posted in a support group I’m in on FB that “Baby steps are okay, every step in the right direction will benefit you!” It’s true. cut out the daily treats, make them special again, eat in a way that’s beneficial to your body, in a way that you know you can sustain. don’t ‘diet’, make positive life changes. Every one counts.

Sunday Reflect, Reset and No Regrets

Sunday is going to be my quiet day this week! All kinds of good things happening next week!

Housekeeping post:

  1. I signed up for the first exercise program I’m going to give a try! Hopefully I can get a pic or two to share, as this will be funny… for you, probably not so much for me! Kickboxing! Yes that’s right! I’m going to learn how to punch and kick things properly!
  2. Blood Sugars are nicely sitting between 4.6 and 5.2 pre and post meals so I’m really looking forward to seeing the lab results in September!
  3. Weight is now down to 225 lbs! that’s 17 down in 2 weeks. pictures below from just prior to start date and the second one is from Friday.
  4. Still astonished at how much energy I have daily!
Left taken June 2019 Right taken July 12 2019 Two week progress.

Onwards and downwards!!

Honesty and Accountability

Since I decided this would be my public accountability, I figure I need to admit to embarrassing things, but at the same time I get to brag, believe me I will, about the changes, victories both NSV and Scale ones.

So the basics:

Age 51

Starting weight (2 weeks ago) 242

Height – 5’2″ for those of you running to a BMI chart, it was 43.9 Morbidly Obese

Diabetes T2

High Cholesterol

Blood Pressure: 146/101 Average with pulse at 76

Exercise – None

Images from June 10 after a few weeks of Lazy Keto

As things progress I will post updates! I look forward to positive changes! Also interested in other peoples changes if they want to share! comment below or link to your own blog if you are on a life journey!

Exercise.. Just Kill Me Now!

The biggest ‘side effect’ of this new way of eating is an abundance of energy. I feel like I should be doing something all the time, and I’m starting to get restless.

I’ve decided it’s time to start looking for an exercise or 3 to do either at home, or outside to burn off some of the crazed Tazmanian Devil spinning I find myself in.

This week every morning, before I even make my coffee, I’ve been doing at least 20 minutes on my elliptical trainer. it feels great starting the day off that way, but it doesn’t feel like enough. So I’m making a list of things I’d like to try, and then I will let you all know how well (or badly) I do!

I’m hoping it will be a huge learning adventure! Minimal bruises even!

  1. Yoga
  2. walking
  3. biking
  4. boot camp at local gym
  5. boxercise
  6. dancing (zumba)

Please comment below if you have suggestions on other modern forms of torture you feel I might enjoy trying! Also if there is something you’d love for me to try and its not overly costly, that might be fun for me, or for the readers to get a laugh at my possible RANT add that too!