Happily Happy with one less pill!

Earlier this year I was put on a ‘happy pill’ to help with my anxiety and depression. My situation of being isolated by helping out with my Mom ( Parkinson’s Disease) and my Dad and his memory issues and becoming panicked at the idea of being looked at or judged over my slowly expanding self.

Today when I saw my doctor, after 10 min of general catching up and reviewing my official 10 Kg (22 lbs probably 80 more to go) lost and my over all change in energy levels and confidence, she suggested that I could probably stop taking that little yellow pill.

I’m most hopeful that this will be a medication in my history now. I told her I would stop for 2 weeks and make notes on any changes. (not quite ready to give up the security blanket.)

Everyone is so different on their reactions with foods, everyone has their demons. I’m hopeful that my Diabetes Hellhound and my Cholesterol Daedra will be following the ‘happy little pill’ into my drug history too!

I am thankful at having the opportunity to change my life, grow into a new me and hopefully gain extra years in the journey too. The knowledge I was given to start and the path it’s taking me along have been just the push I needed .

So many things in life I dreamed of trying are starting to look like they might be reality, my bucket list is growing by the page lately! Old hobbies are on my radar again!

I hope you all are enjoying something in life, it makes all the other stuff so much more bareable.

Slow and Steady

They say slow and steady wins the race. Something I believe, but I need to work on my patience! I want it to be 3 months from now already so I can see how far I’ve gotten. So now I am working on teaching myself to appreciate where I am one day at a time.

Yesterday I was on a high, The scale had moved, I hit my first 20 lb loss!! clothes were fitting so much better and I felt terrific. I think I pushed it by including some berries in my meal plan along with a new pre-marinated chicken for my last meal of the day though. Today I’m puffy faced and I went back to bed at 6:00 am and slept another 3 hours. When I got up I felt sluggish and terrible. My blood sugars were 5.2. The thing is, I’m so much more in tune to what my body is saying that after a short rant, self hate session and a small slide into guilt, I bucked up and told myself to move on, it happened, learn from it!

Today I will clean eat, nothing outside of my main food choices and see how that feels tomorrow. My body is healing from decades of abuse, I need to help it.

I had a great NSV this morning after the whole woe is me thing, I fixed my slipper without having to sit! I just lifted my foot, didn’t fall over, fixed the heel and then as I put my foot back down realized how amazing that little thing felt!

Today I am going to try watch a few beginner yoga videos and give that a go. I know I need structure and routine so I’m hoping it will be something I can slot in to my day.

Hope Everyone out there is appreciating themselves and enjoying their day!

Struggle, Wrestle, Win that bout!

Hello Everyone out there!

My mind is on Motivation, Will-power and over all success today. Most people are not 100% able to follow new ‘diet’ changes, especially if it means cutting out foods you love, permanent or temporary, it’s hard to tell the cravings what to do sometimes!! Remember every step is one step further than you were before!

So I wanted to visit this topic for myself.

I love pizza, I also know I can’t just have 1 slice and be done. So I have locked that food into my “No can do” box. BUT I have a promise to myself that if I stick to my plan, achieve my goals, I will reward myself.

The more I delve into my health choices, the more I realize that as long as you retain what you know and live it, the more habit it becomes. So eating right, exercising and general taking care of my mind, body and spirit (soul) will be the norm.

I’ve started finding non-food rewards more pleasurable. I’d prefer a soak in the tub with a new scented bath bomb, over any candy. (Confession – I don’t really have a sweet tooth, so was a bit easier for me and I fit better in the tub now, so it’s definitely not just a reward, but an NSV too!)

The other thing I do is journal daily for Blood pressure, blood sugars, weight, foods eaten, times and exercise done. There are multiple reasons I do this, to keep myself in check, to be able to discover and identify any foods that don’t react well with my body, and also to track results. It’s very motivating to see a steady, even if slow, fall in weight, or blood sugars.

I don’t give the weight thing as much regard as I do measurements though. The changes in inches, sizes of clothes and overall feeling of being able to reach a little farther, or bend to pick something up with no effort, the NSVs (Non-Scale Victories) are way more motivating.

The other and last but not least muse I want to share today is that nothing is a failure or cheat. If you ‘fall off the wagon’ don’t look at it as failure, look at it as a lesson on what triggered the fall, and make plans on how to avoid that in the future. Life happens, you have to cope in a way that works for you, but maybe instead of eating the sugary stuff, comfort yourself with something a bit healthier.

Remember, starting over is easier mentally if you walk in with your mind set to knowing it’s done it before, it can do it again!

Take care of you. You should be your #1 fan and biggest supporter.

Revelations, Reality and the Stall

Hi everyone!

This week has been very much about healing, experimenting and learning. I’ve been focusing on listening to what my body tells me as I try adding new foods to my menu.

First I have to admit, I found a veggie I really don’t like. It wasn’t the taste, so much as the texture. The Eggplant! Maybe one day I’ll find a recipe that makes it palatable for me.

My weight hasn’t moved this week, but that’s to be expected, my body has a lot of healing to do and I’ve noticed NSVs that far outweigh (no pun intended!) any Scale drops. clothes fit a little loser, the horrible taste in my mouth is gone and my finger nails are growing in stronger now. There is also the skin miracles for me! my skin is smooth, clearer and old small scars and brown spots are fading. Also leg and arm muscles are starting to show through the fatty areas.

I’m exercising daily, first thing in the morning and all my pent up extra energy seems to benefit from that too.

THE BEST PART to me is the positivity I feel about things. I’m excited to go places and do things! My Bucket List of things the fat old lady me, plans on doing are all way more probable now. I’m not ashamed of who I am.

I have also done a reality check and will tone down my expectations on exercises. I want to learn Yoga next for stretching, flexibility and relaxation. I am researching rather than just seeing something and picking my ‘cool’ factor. That will all come later. For now I need to heal my mind and body and work my way into the HIIT and strenuous exercises.

I am also going into schooling this fall with an open mind. The way of life I have chosen feels right to me and so far has been very positive! Learning Natural Nutrition with ‘daily nutritional government standards’ might not fully support my choices, but it doesn’t mean it can’t be applied. I want to learn everything I can about nutrition for not just physical positives, but also for the mental health and well being. To heal, one must balance the mind, body and soul.

The end goal for me isn’t necessarily about weight, it’s about making friends with my body and feeling good about my life.

Butt Kicking received, earned and almost lasted until the very end!

The first exercise chosen to try to see if it would be a fit for me was last night… let me tell ya, I got my butt kicked and I loved every second of the intense HIIT , stretching, technique learning, partnering exercises and experience!

Kickboxing is fun, challenging and all the butt jokes are based on the fact that late last night and this morning, the only muscles really feeling it are my glutes!

To start off, the staff is super friendly and helpful. The place is clean and inviting, and the other tortured souls are friendly too. A definite family feel to the whole experience. This helped me to fight off my minor anxiety attack immediately!

The level of experience varied within the class, but the instructors were attentive and would show me modified versions when I wasn’t up to the full intensity of the class.

I left feeling 1000% proud of myself, even though a mere 4 minutes before the end I had to step out as I felt a little light headed. Out of shape me needs some serious exercising in between to get myself up to where I’ll really benefit from the classes, but I’m really looking forward to my next class!! I’ll be there with gloves on! ( mine were supplied as part of the class fee and are a pretty pink. )

If you’re thinking of trying this yourself, I would recommend this company and especially their Thornhill branch! I love Kickboxing https://www.facebook.com/ilovekickboxingthornhill/ .

But research locally for you and look for deals!

I’m on a Journey

This year, I decided that I needed to STOP.

Stop the fear of what other people think or say about me.

Stop procrastinating on getting healthy.

Stop letting everyone and everything come before myself.

So I sucked in my fears and April 2019, took step 1 – I called my doctor.

This one call started a ball rolling that I am really grateful for. My Diabetes was way out of control, my cholesterol was more in control that I, and my weight was a bit shocking. Here’s the thing, my doctor threw me a life line. Keto and IF (Intermittent Fasting). The true name for what I am currently following is TRE – Time Restricted Eating.

A day for me at the moment looks like this:

Wake at 6:00 am (body seems to like that time, I am not using an alarm)

Take morning Blood Sugar test

Exercise and drink water with the occasional salt added to help with electrolytes ( mom asked if they were used to help the blood find it’s way in the dark… I cringed.

Morning coffee – black or sometimes Bulletproof (I add a little butter)

wait a bit, test blood pressure, check email and social media while finishing the coffee.

11:00 am – Food time. I am eating a Ketogenic Diet, so I usually scramble an egg and add some cucumber to cleanse my palette, and bacon or small breakfast sausages til I feel satiated. At this point the medications I am on are taken.

The rest of the day I work on art, or find things to do around the house as I help mom with whatever she may need! (Mom has Parkinson’s, diagnosed over 22 years ago)

At around 3:30 or 4:00 pm I eat dinner. Lots of veggies, salads, steaks, salmon. all kinds of choices. I eat whatever I’ve chosen until I’m satiated again.

That’s it! Then I spend the evening doing whatever comes up! read, watch a show, play a game.

It’s been just over a week. The changes have been a great surprise! I’ve lost some weight (12 lbs so far), I’ve moved down T-shirt and pant sizes and my energy level is the best part! I actually went looking for an exercise to start.

I’m slowly working the time I exercise for up and will start looking for a fun way to continue this new love of moving!

The other added bonus – I don’t have constant headaches.

I also made the decision to go back to school for natural nutrition. I’ll muse, rant and chat about that starting in September I’m sure!

So for now, I’ll wish everyone a great Wednesday and will M C and R at you again soon!