Happily Happy with one less pill!

Earlier this year I was put on a ‘happy pill’ to help with my anxiety and depression. My situation of being isolated by helping out with my Mom ( Parkinson’s Disease) and my Dad and his memory issues and becoming panicked at the idea of being looked at or judged over my slowly expanding self.

Today when I saw my doctor, after 10 min of general catching up and reviewing my official 10 Kg (22 lbs probably 80 more to go) lost and my over all change in energy levels and confidence, she suggested that I could probably stop taking that little yellow pill.

I’m most hopeful that this will be a medication in my history now. I told her I would stop for 2 weeks and make notes on any changes. (not quite ready to give up the security blanket.)

Everyone is so different on their reactions with foods, everyone has their demons. I’m hopeful that my Diabetes Hellhound and my Cholesterol Daedra will be following the ‘happy little pill’ into my drug history too!

I am thankful at having the opportunity to change my life, grow into a new me and hopefully gain extra years in the journey too. The knowledge I was given to start and the path it’s taking me along have been just the push I needed .

So many things in life I dreamed of trying are starting to look like they might be reality, my bucket list is growing by the page lately! Old hobbies are on my radar again!

I hope you all are enjoying something in life, it makes all the other stuff so much more bareable.

Slow and Steady

They say slow and steady wins the race. Something I believe, but I need to work on my patience! I want it to be 3 months from now already so I can see how far I’ve gotten. So now I am working on teaching myself to appreciate where I am one day at a time.

Yesterday I was on a high, The scale had moved, I hit my first 20 lb loss!! clothes were fitting so much better and I felt terrific. I think I pushed it by including some berries in my meal plan along with a new pre-marinated chicken for my last meal of the day though. Today I’m puffy faced and I went back to bed at 6:00 am and slept another 3 hours. When I got up I felt sluggish and terrible. My blood sugars were 5.2. The thing is, I’m so much more in tune to what my body is saying that after a short rant, self hate session and a small slide into guilt, I bucked up and told myself to move on, it happened, learn from it!

Today I will clean eat, nothing outside of my main food choices and see how that feels tomorrow. My body is healing from decades of abuse, I need to help it.

I had a great NSV this morning after the whole woe is me thing, I fixed my slipper without having to sit! I just lifted my foot, didn’t fall over, fixed the heel and then as I put my foot back down realized how amazing that little thing felt!

Today I am going to try watch a few beginner yoga videos and give that a go. I know I need structure and routine so I’m hoping it will be something I can slot in to my day.

Hope Everyone out there is appreciating themselves and enjoying their day!

Revelations, Reality and the Stall

Hi everyone!

This week has been very much about healing, experimenting and learning. I’ve been focusing on listening to what my body tells me as I try adding new foods to my menu.

First I have to admit, I found a veggie I really don’t like. It wasn’t the taste, so much as the texture. The Eggplant! Maybe one day I’ll find a recipe that makes it palatable for me.

My weight hasn’t moved this week, but that’s to be expected, my body has a lot of healing to do and I’ve noticed NSVs that far outweigh (no pun intended!) any Scale drops. clothes fit a little loser, the horrible taste in my mouth is gone and my finger nails are growing in stronger now. There is also the skin miracles for me! my skin is smooth, clearer and old small scars and brown spots are fading. Also leg and arm muscles are starting to show through the fatty areas.

I’m exercising daily, first thing in the morning and all my pent up extra energy seems to benefit from that too.

THE BEST PART to me is the positivity I feel about things. I’m excited to go places and do things! My Bucket List of things the fat old lady me, plans on doing are all way more probable now. I’m not ashamed of who I am.

I have also done a reality check and will tone down my expectations on exercises. I want to learn Yoga next for stretching, flexibility and relaxation. I am researching rather than just seeing something and picking my ‘cool’ factor. That will all come later. For now I need to heal my mind and body and work my way into the HIIT and strenuous exercises.

I am also going into schooling this fall with an open mind. The way of life I have chosen feels right to me and so far has been very positive! Learning Natural Nutrition with ‘daily nutritional government standards’ might not fully support my choices, but it doesn’t mean it can’t be applied. I want to learn everything I can about nutrition for not just physical positives, but also for the mental health and well being. To heal, one must balance the mind, body and soul.

The end goal for me isn’t necessarily about weight, it’s about making friends with my body and feeling good about my life.

Exercise.. Just Kill Me Now!

The biggest ‘side effect’ of this new way of eating is an abundance of energy. I feel like I should be doing something all the time, and I’m starting to get restless.

I’ve decided it’s time to start looking for an exercise or 3 to do either at home, or outside to burn off some of the crazed Tazmanian Devil spinning I find myself in.

This week every morning, before I even make my coffee, I’ve been doing at least 20 minutes on my elliptical trainer. it feels great starting the day off that way, but it doesn’t feel like enough. So I’m making a list of things I’d like to try, and then I will let you all know how well (or badly) I do!

I’m hoping it will be a huge learning adventure! Minimal bruises even!

  1. Yoga
  2. walking
  3. biking
  4. boot camp at local gym
  5. boxercise
  6. dancing (zumba)

Please comment below if you have suggestions on other modern forms of torture you feel I might enjoy trying! Also if there is something you’d love for me to try and its not overly costly, that might be fun for me, or for the readers to get a laugh at my possible RANT add that too!